Sunday, October 8, 2017
Another reason is that I don't feel the need to write anymore, I will usually write when I am in an emotional roller coaster ride. Well, I guess I am not in one anymore. It's weird, but I seem to be the kind who bounced off fast after a heartbreak, once I get a hook that I could focused on which I had a couple of months ago. Thankfully it has helped me to move on successfully.. I guess I am too good at goodbye
What I am focusing now is to provide for my family, work hard, make sure that we can get that house for my folks. Focus on Yaqqin my precious nephew, I feel like I'm his mum to be honest.. He is too cute btw.
Just going with the flow of life.. And surrender where it may take me and at the same time be and do my best for everyone in my life.
And ooh I came to a point where I realized, travelling for no purpose gives me no fun, it is odd to have such a sudden thought given I was so excited about going somewhere in my previous post, I just don't have the passion to do so anymore I guess. Not for the right reason..
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
Friday, August 11, 2017
I am one who will always sacrifice myself to a relationship/connection whatever you called it.
I've experienced not being treated justly or should I say I made the most effort but the other person care less .
I am now conpletely clear that I don't want to be in that state anymore.
Despite living a single life people may ask me don't you get lonely?
Me:"hell no" and I wish to keep it that way until a deserving one comes
Self worth is good for my emotional wellbeing and it keeps me happy.
Sunday, July 23, 2017
I guess dream really is one unexplainable existance. now im wondering how and why there is even a dream in the first place.. What causes it, complete with a full story line.
Hmm (long thinking stare into space)
Saturday, July 15, 2017
So I went for a night trek on friday. I joined a big group..
The hike was all good except for when my colleague started feeling nauseous.. Her face and lips are pale. I asked her to rest and let me know if she is not okay to continue. But she didn't say much. Then there is this older guy I think 40plus yo.. Came to advice her to keep hiking and encouraging sounds sincerely caring.. And up till a point my colleague could not take it anymore she just stopped.. AndI stopped too. Went completely pale.. One of the sisters offered her two pieces of dates. And she took it.. After that all were good and we're ready to continue hiking..
That's when the weirdness freaky creepy stuff started happening. At first I thought that uncle was just welcoming new people to the team.. And he asked me a lot of questions. Trying to sound very friendly. And used "I n U" instead of calling himself pak cik...
Well me being me.. I can sense if something is off about a person very easily.. So i started to not answer much
And things got weirder when he will come to where ever that we were resting at trying to stike a conversation..
And till we all went down the hill upon completion... Before going off he asked for a selfie with us.. And I thought, red flag again..
Not until I was in the car driving, my colleague told me.. "kak nad, saya tak suka lah pak cik tu, dia letak Tangan kat bahu saya..."
Im like tang tang... My gut was right
. He is an itchy old man.. (sounds harsh but that is the best way to describe it)..
No wonder lah bersungguh asked me to join for the next hike at angsi..
Lucky I said, I need to check my schedule..
Learning from the trip:
1.Never trust a guy that much, sometimes they have funny business up their sleeves (I never really did) except for the one I really trust and know how they are as a human being.
2. Always2 bring energy booster during a hike, may not be for me but for people undery care...
3. Bukit saga was easy. I think my second time I could do it up and down in just 1 hour instead of 2. I will definitely go there again.. Cause it's good cardio and I am so happy I don't really feel tired after the hike. It was an easy one for me.. Alhamdullillah...